In the month of May...

Since I've completed my final papers on 21/4 and Viva on 26/4, days have passed by very quickly. I went to have a look at the broadband promo at Qbay today. Well, it will take me some time b4 i switched to the broadband.
Now I'm working in a company that has high-speed internet connection. Although I don't blog while at work, I read blogs at work. muahaha. No harm since it only takes a few minutes to read a blog post. ;)
But I will be working in another company come June. In June, I will be officially hired as a full-time graduate-employee. So maybe it's not wise for me to keep spending time reading my fav blogs but to get down to WORK! Yeah, broadband will come next month or so.
Meanwhile, my lecturer wants me to do a journal based on my fyp. I am given one-month.
Means that by end of May I must finish it! No resting for holidays it seems.
And oh bout the Masters thingy, I'll put it for future plans. Hopefully after I start work, I will have a clearer picture on what I really want to study deeper, depending on what my career will lead me into.
Writing a journal is not as easy as it seems. Suddenly it looks like it's a higher level from writing a thesis. The experts are the ones evaluating a journal. -_-"

datelines!!

All datelines are getting closer. I have lots to do and loads of unfinished work. I'm stuck in writing my thesis. I've got little time left to collect data. All my tests and quizzes are coming one after another, since there's only March to finalise everything. I've done one test terribly wrong. I don't want to repeat that horrible mistake.
Still, I'm having difficulties in many areas. Why is it so tough for me? Of course I want to try my best, but it always falls short. I just don't know why.

Flu

For the past 2 days i was down with flu. Today, condition improved but kept feeling tired. The loratadine, paracetamol, and cough mixture makes me feel sleepy. Tired as it is, I am trying to open my eyes wide and pay attention to lectures. And ya, my fyp. Time is running out and i'm under pressure to do it. Drowsy... gotta sleep.

Important Point

It will be tough. I don't know what should I say, nor should I make any decisions. More on what should I say to determine the consequences that will follow. I dislike it. I dislike it. Normally I know what I am supposed to do, supposed to make the once and for all decision...but not really this time. Yeah, not really. But it will become 'really' after tomorrow, or for days that will follow. Once again, I shall face it. Is it I'm just exaggerating it? Nope, it's bugging me. That's why I'm concerned. I will not say lose before the battle have not started. I shall face the challenges thrown in. This is the important point and it's good to end it like a quality performance.

Up & Running

Yesterday i had a bad headache.. so bad till feel like vomiting. Today - better.. after more than 10 hrs sleep.

Nach dem Deutsch Prufung

Heute habe ich LAG 200 Prufung. Leider kann ich nicht Ende meine antworte vor 4.15 p.m.
Aufgabe 4 antworte ich nicht. Es ist 25 Mark. Aber es ist vorbei.
Deshalb bin ich sehr glucklich. Am Freitag und Samstag habe ich zwei Prufung. Viel Erfolg!

Exams..they're very near

Starting Monday 29th oct, I will have my examination for ending this sem 1, third year. I feel stress..i can't recall some things that i have studied for the past 2 weeks. Sometimes i feel ok, sometimes i don't. Now i can't absorb anymore. graa...grrr...why...why...it's all in the mind..
now how?? maybe i shd do some slow recap, skimming through formulas. glancing through pages. Not much that i could do...
auto stress mode crops up when the day approaches...it's just another student life routine. i'll be out of this mode when the papers end. =)

Happy Day

The study week has begun. I am relieved that all my tests are over. For me, this sem has recorded the highest number of tests among all the previous sems. Phew... now only need to focus on the finals which will begin on 29 oct. Timetable is more packed this sem, as my papers will end on 9 nov. Which means I will have holiday earlier than my friends who will have their last papers later than that.
Today is my 'chinese birthday', which is first day of eating vegetarian in the month of the 9 emperor gods. Later my gang of friends will belanja me...haha.
Last night I watched the live telecast of our very first astronaut being lauched to space.
I synchronised my time to 21:22 when it was launched. ;-)
On astro channel 558, they had some interviews with our astronauts and also an ex-cosmonaut, besides that historical moment of the rocket blasting off to space.
According to the ex-cosmonaut, an astronaut will witness 16 sunrises and sunsets in one earth day. Which means, a Muslim practising fasting will have 45 minutes of fasting and breaking fast in between. Whoa, must keep tab of that 45 min intervals.
Upon getting itself into orbit it, the space shuttle will travel at 8 km/s that is why the view from up there will be spectacular. U can see everything passing by so fast, live telecast. Not a boring view, eh.. But our dear astronaut will be doing some checkings and experiments up there so no standing by the window for too long to watch the world goes by...haha. But time is travelling fast there, so every 16 sunrises is a new 'day' so it should be cool..
Ok, i gotta go now... my roommate is waiting for me. She's going back to her hometown for this study week. =D

reflections

Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others,
It is because we are different that each of us is special.
Don't set your goals by what other people deem important.
Only you know what is best for you.

This is an extract from a forwarded email. This paragraph seems familiar as I have read it somewhere before. Between year 2002 till early 2004, I have done some poem writings and readings. Inspirational poems can be found plenty on the internet. Some touching ones are also beautifully done by the authors. Some, though, have hidden meanings that is hard to interpret. Any way, it's a good reminder once a while to reflect on ourselves.
This Monday, 2 tests! Arghh... this sem always 2 tests in one day. I feel stressful... I can't finish studying and it's tough..

Another extract from the same email:
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

The weather today is so nice! Rainy season. =p

Final Year

It's my final year of studies as an undergraduate. Time flies. It's a hard decision to decide whether to further my studies or to enter the working force after next year.
It's never easy to decide. If I were to further my studies, in what field I want to focus? Work ...to support my finances. Like my roommate jokingly say, "Next year you'll be a corporate lady and become an EPF contributor. Must be very busy till no time to have lunch with me". Whoa, EPF contributor is emphasised.
Very true in the sense that working can be very hectic. Study life is different. Although studies got lots of hurdles and stress, it is from a different perspective.
Hey roommate, I will keep my promise that I will once in a while visit and have lunch with you...since you always complain you have '2 long' years.
About my feelings towards this final year, the pressure is on, but with greater intensity. Since the final year project taking off soon and many papers this sem, wahh..~sweats~
I laugh less nowadays..that's sad. I am the cheery type during my secondary school days. Try asking any of my sec. friends-they would agree.
Adding some cheer to my melancholy third year, Smile =) more. Then the world smiles back to you.
And of course, third year shall be a memorable and fun year!

07.07.07

It's been a month since I have updated my blog!
Oh my goodness, it's not that I have forgotten this blog, just that I've been busy with work.

My industrial training came to an end yesterday, 6 july 07 and yesterday was the day I went to register for my course for this semester.
I had a presentation on my last day of internship. The meeting was called a technical forum. So it was one-hour-Q&A forum for the whole department to share.
Since there are only two presenters, me and another coursemate; I estimated both of us will have a half-an hour presentation each. Prior to that I had to prepare more stuff to present besides the assignment they let me did coz or else my presentation will only last 10-15 minutes if I don't add in extra stuff.

I include whatever things I have learnt since the first week, coz during the first week I was given a stack of notes to study. Some semicon notes and physics related stuff. The presentation went on smoothly, just that I was stuck in one of the slides. I can't explain the coplanarity problems an electronic device properly. Till now, I still have difficulty explaining that. It was kinda embarrassing in that particular section. Surprisingly, nobody interrupted and say, "I don't understand what you are trying to explain. I guess what you wanted to say about coplanarity is bla bla bla...". So I was there with lots of pauses and urm ah...em...em.. and moved on with the next slide. But luckily it was not the main thing on my agenda. small matter. So I went on till the end.

Came to one part, instead of being asked, I threw a question to my supervisor. I remembered I was given to do the assignment and I worked for 2 weeks, got the results until he gave another version of that same thing. I had to find all the differences between first and second version till I was so 'fuming' inside because actually he already had that latest version and did not gave me till 2 weeks later. The earlier version of course, it's not important anymore as it is considered outdated. So instead of showing my disagreement openly, I asked "*****, didn't in the meeting last time you said you'll check the discrepancy of the data because the old version and new version have differences by the way they are measured?"
He went on answering "Ya. bla bla" so fast I didn't catch what he said coz he used many terms that I'm not familiar. Gee, this supervisor ah........*cekik*cekik*

But matter is resolved as I have done my part with that latest version so end of story. I just wanted to highlight to him that next time give interns a latest thing to work on, don't let them suffer first or do double work. =p

Oh ya, we had a great time yesterday. After that presentation we had a farewell lunch at Paddington House of Pancakes @ QB. I realised that eating delicious and special pancakes can cost 20 times nore than the normal pancakes I buy from foodstall. Ha ha. But PHOP do have unique flavours and a variety of pancakes that will tempt you to try it out. Afterall, the farewell lunch is paid by the company so even more worth it. =D

After lunch, head back to factory, get some things done and I went back to USM and register. Next, went to hostel, register. Met up with roommate. Went home and attended wedding dinner of my uncle's secretary. She's very close to us too and knows our family very well. Kinda like old friends. I knew her 9 years ago. She helped me print my assignment coz I don't have a printer yet at that time. So sweet. =)
After dinner went to TESCO till 1 am to shop for groceries. Wah, so tired after I came back.
What a day. My training was a good experience. I shall keep this in mind and till then, it's back to studies on monday!

Project Handover

Today I received a project.....a to be continued project from the past trainees who had done it halfway. So my target is to improvise the whole thing, get more datas and do some simulations. Before all this is done, first step is to read and make research of what this whole thing is about. Next, understand it properly and ask whatever questions that is in my mind.

I am still at step no. 1 - to read the whole thing. They had done their part in documenting them and it's my duty to read and laarn from what they had written. The notes given for the past week serve as the fundemental things I need to know about the processes that is involved in my dept. So this week the materials are going more in depth....I hope i won't sink into deepness and have difficulty floating! =p

Decisions

Decisions- are difficult to make...especially when the timeframe is short and once made it will make a big impact no matter which way you choose.
Decisions are also hard to make if there are barriers imposed.
They are even harder if there are a few to be decided once and for all.

It'S Friday already!

One weekend to go and back to school.

Back to lab and lectures.

I'm still stuck in my assignment, MBE (Molecular Beam Epitaxy).

After borrowing 2 books in library, I felt the more I read, the blurrer I get.

It's because in class we have a brief glance on MBE then move on to so many other things.

In the books, the scientists, professors and PhD students not only know the history but every single detail of the machine also they know. Yikes,why so difficult to understand? so many bombastic scientific words and beyond my imagination. *sweat sweat*

Anyway, Sunday is happening with this bloggers meet:

Should I go or not? What to expect? I'm a very very new blogger...but not really new in reading ppl's blog =P

I hav been following blogs from my friends in friendster, my aunt's 5xmom , CY's jam , long lost friend's blog which is not updated anymore:

setsuni and others.

If I have more time, of course I will spend more time on my blog and learn about this web thing. So far, I only know the basics of uploading a blog, creating links and uploading pics. hehe

Gotta go...=D